I just wanted to let everyone know that I will be taking this blog down within the next week.
I started this blog in the hope to connect with people I did not get to talk to very often. So we could catch up on eachothers' lives on a more personal level than just Facebook or MySpace. I had hoped that as I make changes and decisions in my life I would be able to share openly with everyone who reads this...no matter how emotional and difficult those changes may be.
Throughout my entire life I have used writing as a way to express my emotions. I am the first to admit that I am not the best at communication. I use writing as a way to de-stress and just let everything go. For me, it's so much easier than talking about it. Maybe it's some sort of defense mechanism? I don't know. But it helps and calms me. I had hoped that this blog would be a sort of journal. Somewhere that if I needed advice, or help, or encouragement, or just needed to get something off of my chest, I would be able to write about it.
Unfortunately, this blog has ceased to be a place for me to write free of judgement and ridicule. It has become the opposite of what I had hoped it would be...it has become stressful and worrisome to me. Instead of being a place to release my feelings - it has become somewhere that, even as I write this, I know that people are judging me. I have to be careful about what I write because I know it will backfire on me.
I want to assure everyone who may be wondering - I am ok. Do I have alot going on right now? Yes. Do I have some important decisions to make in the near future? Yes. But honestly - what 22/23-year old, (semi) recent college grad is not thinking about the rest of their lives right now? About what they want to do with their career, where they want to live, the type of family they want to have? I am in the process of re-evaluating where I am at right now, and deciding if I want to make changes to my current path.
I am the type of person who lives with no regrets. I do not regret anything I've done with my life up to this point. Even though I may bitch and moan sometimes, I really do love my life. I have a college degree and will hopefully be persuing my Master's within the next year. I have a stable job that, granted I do not love, but I definitely do like and I really could not ask for a better company to work for. I have an amazing group of friends who would be there for me at the drop of a hat if I needed them. My family, while not as close as we used to be, I know supports and loves me no matter what. I am living on my own and supporting myself. No - I'm not married and I don't have kids...nor do I have plans to do either of those things in the near future. When the time is right, those things will happen. I am in no rush. I believe that I am a good person. I am not perfect and I make alot of mistakes. But I believe that my flaws make me who I am. I mean, c'mon, who wants to be perfect?
I want to thank everyone who has read this blog and supported me and offered advice or giudance over the past couple of years. If you would like to keep in close contact, I do still have a Facebook or you can reach me by email at lcstratt@hotmail.com. If you want my cell phone number, email or message me and I will give it to you.
Thanks everyone.
Lisa
Saturday, October 31, 2009
The End.
Posted by Lisa at 12:26 AM
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love you too
-D
Love you too and will miss your posts. See you on FB and at the family gatherings...
You are awesome and I love you, Mom
Drop a large dose of apathy. Who gives a shit what other people think. If someone thinks I'm an idiot, I don't believe them. I think that they are wrong about me. Write what you want and ignore people. Most are idiots themselves, so they think you must be too. If you take to heart what others have to say, you'll be crippled for life.
Hi Lisa
I am new to blogging and I stumbled across your article. When you say you are going to close your account because it did not reach your expectations, I understand entirely in that I created a site for all therapists to get together, over the past few months I now have over 50 members but no one talks to eachother, it is really strange and I made a mental note that if no one starts talking to eachother then I will close the site by the end of the year. It is all very well that everyone signs up and they advertise their business or themselves and it is as if everyone is waiting for everyone to contact them. Anyway, I can relate to you somehow, you say you have spent all your life looking after yourself, ditto! Keep chatting! Take care. Janet
You probably do not read this anymore and I just wanted to say I liked your blog it was true and funny. If you ever decide to read comments I hope you like mine. You are a character and good one at that.
I appreciate your PO very much the picture with the article. Continues to refuel!!
If you can't handle criticizm from a complete stranger, then maybe you aren't ready for the real world.
A lot of what you wrote in your most recent blog I can relate to on my own level. You sound like me somewhat. I am a bit older and do have the family including 5 beautiful, intelligent children.
Over the years I have learned not to worry about what others think, especially anyone that that doesn't mean anything to me in life. I believe it is in human nature to be judgemental to some extent. Ppl that really do care may not like what you do or say, but those who really matter and really care will love you regaurdless. Learn to do things for yourself and to have the f'm attitude. I read into the 2nd one don't change yourself for anyone!! Be comfortable with yourself not to compromise your personality. There is someone out there that will love you for you. Don't go looking forcefully but let it happen. You may go through a lot of the wrong ones first. I believe very much that your wrong choices builds your character and makes you who you are. Over time you become a stronger person also and you shouldn't regret life it's too short for that. In the famous lyrics of Nickelback "Each day is a gift not a given right" I live by that song or have tried to, along with others with the similar message. Another quote I can't remember exactly where I seen "dance like no ones watching, sing like no one is listening and live life to the fullest"
Each person is a hope to this world. Every word that is said counts.
I recently began blogging myself and I just stumbled onto your blog. I enjoyed what I read and I would encourage to keep on writing you are reaching people even if you don't feel like it sometimes. After reading your most recent post I went on to read many of your other posts. I think my advise would be to stick it out. If nothing else it is good mental exercise and therapy.
Hi,
I started writing my blog recently. I really really like yours. If it stresses you out, then i guess ending it would be better. However if it ever helped you and decreased your stress, keep it as an option. Do not let the feeling of other people judging you come in your way of being you, going through a difficult phase. I want to read everything you wrote.
<3
-m
keep up the good work!
Hi, I don't know you, but I stumbled upon your blog and I just want to encourage you to keep writing!! Maybe not here, but somewhere! It's a great practice, and you are gifted with words!
I started my blog for reasons basically identical to yours, and I have a writing "de-stressing" system that is similar, and I know what you mean when you say that you feel judged and ridiculed based on your writing.
Just remember, no one has to read what you say. The fact that they are reading it means that they value your writing on some level, and the fact that they feel challenged says a lot more about them than it does about you. And, in my opinion, it says only good things about you! You make people think and retain your own thoughts despite what others think.
Keep writing, Lisa - have a great day! :)
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